Carve Out My Time

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My husband and I have been hovering around how-our-life-should-be topic. We both have jam-packed deadlines that we need to settle. We even barely have time for vacation. Until one moment, we finally admitted that we were quiet stressed out and sort of feeling disconnected with the authentication of life. So I decided to refocus and regain my true-self so that I wouldn’t have mental tension.

Mindful Reading

Recently, I’ve carved out my time to read something mindful that soothes my inner soul. First thing first, I began with Bible Meditation. It’s not a usual meditation where a person would just read silently and pray. What I do is to have self-discussion, make one-week commitment, and learn more on God’s promises. Through meditation, I feel less stressful as I start my day off. It helps me also enhance my work efficiency. Let me tell you something ‘all knowledge come from Bible’; it’s true! I gain lots of teaching inspirations after communicating with my God. Aside from reading the Bible, I monthly bought Reader’s Digest, an easy-to-bring magazine. Whenever I have spare time, I will find time reading it.

 Do Little Things I Love

I’ve always loved doing simple yet exciting activities, such as, decluttering my reading space, walking my dog, and filling out my cookies jar. I dedicate my evening doing one of those things, giving myself permission to feel contented and passionate. It will definitely reenergize my mind.

Stay active

It’s hard to stay active during rainy season. Yet I am determined that I should get sweat every single day; I should stay active to spike my endorphin so that I gain physical benefits from it. Hence whenever it rains, I try to find activity that can make me sweat, namely, walking around the house while playing flute. Darn . . . it’s quite tiring.

Indulge in Something

Probably you don’t want to copy this from me. In handling feeling of uninspired, I, once awhile, indulge myself in something that I’ve recently enjoyed doing which is online shopping. Not buying a fancy stuff, though. It’s sort of skin care products to pamper my soon-to-be-40 skin. Anyway, it’s undeniable that lately women love the science behind skin care.

Know My Priority

What is my priority? This is the biggest question that I’ve been asking myself. I tend to lose focus on what my priority is. Reflecting back, I wasn’t gentle with myself for I had been chasing something that was actually not my priority. I was preoccupied with something huge that I wanted to have. Now it’s time to get back on my real priority which is molding my character to be selfless, making time to enrich my soul by filling myself with kindness, generosity, and affection.

Carving out my time gives me more life purpose and greater sense of fulfillment. I’m indeed purposeful to always carve out my time to something more meaningful. Lately I feel unburden and life seems a bit lighter.

Absolute Shelter

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Earth is not an absolute shelter;
look around and observe
this world is getting worse;
no peaceful land that one can reserve.

Heaven is the absolute shelter
for the righteous to live in;
where peace and love transcends,
misery and distress fades away.

Those who choose to dwell in earth,
shall gain no eternal wealth,
but those who choose to be in heaven,
shall receive the righteous land.



It’s inevitable that I live in the world where windows, doors, trees, building, walls and food have become people’s favorite spots for picture-taking. In the past I had never taken picture next to a large window or a huge door that might accentuate my looks and outfits; I had never thought of capturing the food I was about to eat so that people would notice what I munch; I had never leaned on a colorful wall, of course. Anyway those things had never occurred to me, at all.

What this world has turned me into is something that I need to be aware of. I’m living in a world where the Millennials are all around. They are creative, fun, energetic, savvy, and a lot more to describe about them. One thing that caught my attention about them is they are object-focused person. Put it this way, to give more evidence, a famous actress posts a picture of her in a hotel room, the next day you’ll see lots of Millennials stay in that room. Young people hunt for great-capturing objects to be shown to their viewers, wanting to get so many likes and comments.

I guess I have been part of what’s trending; whenever I travel to some places, my eyes will roam around, trying to capture unique and eye-catching spots or objects. At first, I wasn’t aware of this sort of desire; I didn’t question myself why my focus was the object not the memory of being in that place. Until one moment I rummaged photos in my album and found out that I mostly captured objects or posed in unnecessary spots. Since then I realize I have actually ‘become’ object-focused person. Social media has made lots of changes into this world. People’s minds have been diverted into something unexplained and indescribable.

In my workplace, I’m dealing with the millennial; they want people to give them something enticing or attractive objects, never give burdens or pressures to them, they won’t be happy. As I get more engaged with them, I learn that  . . . oh boy . . . let me wipe my sweat . . . my future children will be the linkers of the millennial, the object-focused human beings. Should I just literally embrace this fact?  . . . No!




I expect nothing from 2017. All I do is get my gears ready, acknowledging incredible moments in the past and looking forward to awesome adventures in the future. In the present situation, I’ve realized this year has certainly been tough and challenging. I have been through high-level of anxiety and frustration which led me to the feelings of wanting to just retreat from life clutter, searching for a perfect place to soothe my inner soul. I was hard on myself, brimming my mind to get all problems solved. I’ve cried until it got so bitterly painful. Regardless of unpleasant situations I’ve been through, I also had days to rejoice and be grateful for what I have in life. I have established skills that I’m satisfied with where I felt incredibly blessed to have polished them, putting in mind that I am at the right place. I have my small family to cherish every day and peaceful shelter to live in. So far, I’ve done my life the way I understand.

Lately I’ve noticed that I go through each day with a very weak support system. It is indeed humans need strong support system to survive and stay sane every single day. The support system that everyone can get are from church, co-workers, close friends, and family. I attend a very big church, with around 2000 members. With this big amount of congregation, you can hardly have solid fellowship. Let’s say nobody will notice if you don’t attend the church. No doubt, it’s much easier to have fellowship in a small church. Church support system is definitely needed in my family life. Having pastor to visit  once in a week and solid church fellowship may bring much different compare to not having a pastor to visit and a fellowship to ignite spiritual life.

I’m sort of fortunate to have a job that I like with a bonus to stay and work in a very conducive place which I don’t want to trade it for anything. Yet it won’t be settled unless the support system of co-workers is solid because a job will never be done without a solid team and if everyone is busy achieving what they desire for their careers, chaos will happen in a workplace. Fortunately, I could still call my co-workers a team; all we need to do is to have more solid support system; it’s evidently at the weak level.

I have very few friends who are near and dear to my heart whom I miss every day. There were times I wanted to meet them and planned for a sleepover, secluding our husbands (and kids). This kind of desire is difficult to materialize. Marriage life has taken so much from us. We’re sort of parting ways, no chats, no calls, no emails, no texts, I’m just clueless of how they have been doing. When I’m in my lowest moment, friend support system is particularly what I need the most. Conceding the fact that I don’t get friend support system and I fear that I might lose it, someday.

Family is the only support system that I should nurture and reserve. This is the only system that cannot or should not fade away. After getting married, my family gets bigger and wider. I have in mind that my core family will always support me no matter how bad life could be. While on the other side of my husband’s family, I don’t experience having Monster In-laws; everyone is just kind and caring. Nevertheless, in reality, I reach to a point that everyone’s plate in the family is actually full to the brim and there’s no way I could add more burden to them. Somehow my family support system will always be there; but at this time, it hasn’t been stronger than ever.

As of now, I come to a point that looking for a powerful support system in the world is puzzled. The only support system that I can rely on is the Absolute Truth. With that, every moment of what life may present before me this year, I will savor and relish.